The Year I Changed My Name to Dorjee
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I wasn’t exactly happy with where I had come to this point. I’d already spent six years in the business world with not much but experience and debt to show for it. I mean, I had the self-employed luxury—freedom of time, but did I really? I was still missing significant moments in my friends’ lives because I didn’t have the money to fly out and be there for that wedding or the car to show up for that birthday celebration. Sure, I didn’t have a boss lording over me, playing political games with my career or otherwise cutting me down, and I could take a break whenever I wanted, as long as I got the work done in the end. But was that really the freedom I was after?
Ostensibly my friends adored me, I had a loving partner, had bought a house (which I managed to keep despite the ups and downs of my self-employed income), and my family surprised me by flying in for the birthday celebration. That’s love, right? I’m not sure why, but I wasn’t happy. You remember that woman who raised me, yeah, she even mentioned something about my low spirits. I can pretty much hide my true emotions from anyone, except my mom.
Dorjee Wangchuk was a name given to me, an expression of who I am spiritually by the master teacher under which I took refuge in the Tibetan Buddhist religion. I took refuge under the Nyingma tradition, the oldest, unbroken Buddhist lineage. ‘Unbroken’ just means that the oral teachings were passed down continuously, without a break, from Padmasambhava, the founder of this lineage a thousand years ago to students today. Each student receives the teachings as they were handed down from the teacher’s teacher, all the way back to the eighth century. This is an incredible accomplishment! In a tradition like that, the energy runs deep and is very powerful.
’Taking refuge’ is a special moment, as like any coming of age ritual, where the teacher and student touch, hand to crown, and a spiritual exchange happens. I exchange the commitment to regard Lord Buddha’s teaching as my source of and path to enlightenment, and I communicate this commitment telepathically to the master, who receives this transmission, and gives a name to it. This was a life-changing experience for me because I saw pure light energy enter my being and jolt me awake, kind of like sparking a fire to light. I received my spiritual name through his words, and “Dorjee Wangchuk” was born. The name I was given when I took refuge is a description of how I held my commitment when I made it as witnessed by the teacher, and is expressive of how I walk this path.
Dorjee Wangchuk means ‘lord of the thunderbolt’ (irresistible force; knowledge) or ‘diamond’ (indestructibility, compassion). Known also as ‘Vajra’ in Sanskrit, it symbolizes knowledge (ñana-vajira) and compassion forged and joined by wisdom that disintegrates the grasping of consciousness (vinnananam-pariggaha). Think about that for a second. “Hello, my name is Dorjee. I’m here to disintegrate your grasping of consciousness.” It wouldn’t exactly impress my next boss, but then again, I left my last boss in 2007 and never looked back (well, maybe once or twice…). At that time, I entered onto a path that would forge my spirit into the name I was only beginning to understand.
Indeed, this name is a lot to live up to. Personifications of Dorjee in Tibetan culture were often wrathful warriors or nature spirits. I think I know why I spent so much time staring at a wall conquering my emotions: to express my emotions unbridled is seriously destructive, and has caused a lot of damage. I’m truly sorry to those I’ve ever hurt. I vowed to not cause harm, and I protect that samaya by keeping my mind in check.
It’s All About the Mind
You see, the mind is what makes or breaks this reality: “for there is nothing either good or bad, but thinking makes it so.” (Hamlet). I had already decided in high school that I wanted to be a psychologist, and in college, I realized the deplorable state of an industry that was setup to fail. Mental health was being meted out under intense regulations and ‘evidence-based therapies’ were not working. I had already glimpsed another reality, parallel to ours, traveled in our dreams or meditations, which had far more pervasive and lasting impacts than anything the current establishment could offer.
So I hung back from grad school, and delved into my own deep study of the human mind: what it’s made of, how it works, and how it evolves. The tools I’ve found that actually work don’t look anything like what you’d get in a traditional therapy environment, and the energies at work can’t be assessed scientifically. By its very nature, infinity defies science as immeasurable in nuance, but so obvious in its broad impact, that the instruments just don’t exist to capture and explain what’s happening.
But like the perspective of the greatest engineers of last century, what’s more important is that it works, we can always find out how later. I think that’s why so many people are flocking to the esoteric mysteries, which are now being so freely revealed, to answer age-old questions about the universe and themselves that has been secret knowledge held by initiates around the world for so long, yet has not been accepted by the modern scientific establishment when put to the test. We don’t need to know the ‘why’ anymore, we just need to know the ‘how,’ and that knowledge is coming forth in droves. Are you listening?
Re-Defining the Self
And now, I recognize and honor the lineage from which I come, and desire to truly be a part of a heritage that runs powerfully and deep. Having spent a year as another name, I’m now ready to choose what was previously my given name. It is no longer just given, it is now chosen.
I choose my name to be Matthew Koren.
This name means ‘gift of god’ and ‘root’, as in the indivisible part of a word, carrying its fundamental importance. “In the beginning was the Word, and the Word was with God, and the Word was God.” (John 1:1). I’m carrying a gift that I can’t wait to share with you, it’s a gift from God. It’s of fundamental importance to you, this world, and the whole universe. It is the Word of God, and it’s inside you waiting to be expressed.
Go now, and create your Word in the likeness of God, and you will be like him, indeed you will be him, creator manifest. This world is your playground.
Play hard, my friends, and have no regrets.
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Are you a wizard?
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Like “The Truman Show”, people are watching to see when you wake up to this realization and start wielding your magic wand to create beauty and wonder. Life bends to the will of the wizard who is master over his or her condition.
Don’t worry, that doesn’t quite sound like me, either. But I still consider myself ‘successful’.
But success isn’t the same as mastery, is it? Do you go through life trying to achieve success or mastery? What’s the difference?
I spend a lot of time thinking about my own personal development. What education do I need, what classes should I take, what books should I read? But there are two divergent intentions: one, to be successful in this life, and two, to be masterful. I think the distinction is important to clarify.
I realized recently that what I really want is to develop mastery in this life, so I can live the ideal life for me. I think wizardry is all about creating your ideal life aligned with your life purpose. Per the quote I closed with in my last post, my Work is understanding how this magic operates as well the task of actually working the magic.
My life has literally exploded in a thousand ways I couldn’t have predicted since I started focusing on this Work.
I’m now choosing a life of pleasure and joy and community. I work to make money so I eventually don’t have to (more on spending less and saving more later…), but I also ‘work’ to build my community, to build my healing capacity for those around me going through tough transitions.
I play games, and run in the park, and read instead of incessantly asking for more and more—more money, more things, more power, more recognition. You know, the vices of a type-A personality.
I’ve slowed my life down, taken a step back from technology, and reconnected with nature…literally putting my bare feet on the ground. As an aside, it turns out grounding isn’t as complicated as I was making it. It’s not something you need to learn how to do. You don’t need any fancy incense or energetic practice, you just need to connect your bare skin to the Earth.
Just clarifying my intention, to focus on mastery instead of success, has yielded amazing changes and results which I’m very happy with.
“The drive for mastery is very different than the drive for success. If you want success, it typically means that you want a kind of approval—like for society to say that you’re good. Mastery is about valuing your own opinion of what you’re doing, really far more than anyone else’s. That is at the heart of mastery—loving the process.”
– Sarah Lewis, Assistant Professor of History of Art and Architecture and African and African American Studies at Harvard University
Are you choosing mastery or success? Comment below!